Explosion

It's in all of us.

This...thing. We can't run from it, we can never run from it. It's deep inside us, building, waiting for something to set us off, that will set it free. It's waiting to explode...

As it gets closer to getting out...you can feel it. The energy builds, forcing your mind to think of your past, the things you don't want to think about, trying to provoke you, so it can escape. It works. It's happened to me. It wasn't much at first, just a little short temper from time to time. But it's growing. I can feel it getting ready, and its only a matter of time before it will make me think of...him.

It hasn't happened yet. It's in my veins, it's spreading, everywhere. I feel it in my arms, it's the strongest there. There are times...I release it, hoping to delay it, but...it comes back. It will always come back. The energy is building ready to explode from every pore in my body, and I know it's only a matter of time until...I shudder at the thought.

Talking about it helps, it calms it, because it knows I'm scared...I mean...not scared, just...worried. My best friend has all ready had it happen to her. She's disappeared. I haven't had contact with her in months, and it worries me, keeping my up at night, letting the energy grow more and more.

But I know what happens. When it reached breaking point, it finds the trigger, bringing some unwanted memory back to you, and you scream. You do it without even thinking, releasing all of the energy that's been building in your veins and it rushes out. It acts like a shock wave, literally, slamming into anything around you. I want to be alone when it happens...so I don't hurt anyone. I don't know what happens after it explodes, what you turn into, if anything, or if you just...die.

I feel it now. Building. I don't know how much longer I have...but there's more to say, so much more. I have to warn people. So many don't know, oblivious to what's going on inside their own bodies, even the doctors don't know. None of their "sophisticated" machines can detect it. It's not something that can be detected really...now that I think about it I do know what it is.

Many don't know what it is, but I do. It is energy, just that, energy from our souls that has been forced to be known as the "subconscious". And I can tell you right now, it's not happy. That is why it tries to make you angry, because it is angry.

My time is up. I feel it now, the rage. Building...I can't control it. Please, even if you don't believe my words at least try to remember this:

There is something inside us, and it will get out.